Counter-Psychology.

Now Playing: One Good Reason - Celldweller.

So as it seems, I can’t control my lust for writing now. I’ve got a job writing articles for an e-Sports website and I write articles practically everyday for them while trying to juggle my personal life in between that and my other jobs. But that’s not the big problem at present.

My personal life seems to enjoy playing tricks on me. None of it is getting me down, but it is trying it’s hardest to annoy me, for that it gets some points. I’ve been wondering over the past couple of weeks. Just wondering, thinking about the prospects of my life. Since the process of elimination that I have built up for myself, it seems more of them have been cut down and out of my path.

I don’t even have to bother listing them anymore. The whole concept of this list that I had built up of girls that had come up and pretended to have fallen for me; in truth it was all a sham. Even those that had pretended to love me (or even just been friends) for years have just turned out to be nothing more than desperate attentionwhores that are now bitter as fuck.

The part I can’t understand though, is where my friends (or just fake as fuck people I know) want to tell me that I’m the one being bitter about it. I don’t particularly see how I can be bitter if I don’t care, and only respond when I’m bored and feel like baiting someone. Do you try to bring me down because I am happy? Because I’m going to tell you now, I will NOT step down.

I will NOT fold for anyone. I have no reason to fall to the ground right now. I am a strong person and I will not be faltered by ANYONE. Not by my enemies, and sure as fuck not from my friends. Do not try to bring me down based on your insecurities and your misconceptions. Instead, I will offer my services and help you get up off the ground.

I had previously said I wanted to link this to my Notemine Account, and post notes between the sites. As I’ve watched over time, I’ve figured that there will be some that I’ll add to it in the future. But for now, I’m going to document my life’s happenings on here, because somewhere out there, someone wants to understand and change. Time to set up the play.

- If I provide a decent mould to fit into, where you can overcome your goals even in the midst of near impossibility, then I have succeeded in empowerment.
- If you begin to understand that taking the best step forward can still work, no matter how many steps you have taken backwards, then I have succeeded in empowerment.
- If you are safe in your soul and you are ready to accept the things you cannot change in some corners of reality, but still want to change the things that are available, then I have definitely succeeded in empowerment.

Never be afraid to accept the things you cannot change, there are still some parts of it you can respond to anyway. However, the main thing that must be remembered in this case. Never give up, never fold. If you fall down, get up again. Even if you fall 7 times, get up 8.

Even as I stumble on this stairwell, I will forever be vigilant.

AKS.